its him there, its him here

yes yes yes.
i dun even have a path through.
is it because you are afraid?
why can't you just believe me

TJY is right.or maybe not. i am not so special
what am i thinking?

i always read your diaries and it is killing me.


P.s
Permed my hair.
look like a lion now.

fuck

ok... i'll stop being me
but pls, i do it in the open. the rest are still the same just that they keep it to heart.
all the same. all the same.
my life = your life.
what i say = what is in your heart
what i do = what you think
no biggy.
all the same all the same
but since the girl wants it that way then i'll stop being me
all the same. all the same

******

is it really that hard for people like us nowadays?
i tried i tried i tried to crack jokes but i don't seem to be doing it well.
i'm late.
extremely late.
should have, but there is no such thing as 'IF ONLY i could...' in this world when everything is past and present.
well, like what JY said, 'you are late ash'
brave enough to tell me you were seeing someone else.
i like that. i like that.
avoiding me is what i see in all angles thats why its awkward enough and....

the more i continue, the more i feel i cannot communicate with you. so the most i can do is...


















































P.s
wait.

Chips

sorry ryan. didnt call you along for drinks.
yes, initially it was king thierry and i. on the way there in the bus, i decided to call gerald whom i know will be a real arse soon because he will tell his girlfriend and then cheryl will know and blah blah blah.
so anyway king called jia hui too.
we had a couple of drinks at chips and then i got wasted.
*ok i am so tempted to put a smiley face haha

danny came after everything was over.and thierry was like thinking that he isnt sociable because he didnt even say hi to us or anything. cheryl told me that he was pissed with us for not taking care of her -_-
ok no need further explanation when danny is already there to take care of her haha.

so it was DIE HARD 5.0 in the taxi cuz i puke in the taxi but not exactly where i wanted the pile to be.
fortunately it was at the traffic light(red) and so i open the door and puked on the road.
theirry was like hey ash when its green close the door then you continue to puke in the plastic bag that i have ready for you.
LOL die hard. simply die hard. totally.

2nd bay beats day 2007

ok yesterday's bay beats was fun. i watched deputy siren. they were great! moshed again with ryan and gang and then i met my work friends from margaritas. when my friends and i were in the crowd during 'a vacant affair', it was pretty hot and stuffy. we were breathing mat air man. super sticky and filthy in there but it was fun.
i got hit on the face by someone's elbow though. it hurt like hell. and then hilmi asked me to body surf but i was like no way man. i dun wanna smash my head on to the ground. and i helped him instead cuz he wanted to surf so i carried him. the surf brought him to the other side. quite cool though.
after that king and me went to buy beer and jia hui and her friend joined us.
we spilled conversations all over the floor and then ryan came along. drank a bit and we all went home. pretty wild night i can say. especially the moshing haha!

Bay Beats 2007

yesterday was fine...moshing the whole night with king and gang at esplanade
*during PlainSunset
they were cool but the vocalist's face looks damn weird when he's singing
met Papaya and her friends too.
*i think i am in love with her face cuz she looks so 'hot'.
so anyway after that i went to meet my primary sch friend, MJ
drank a bit and then i went home *yawns

hi all.

ok just got this new one deleted the previous one.
let's see......lets start with something fresh in this blog.
stayed home the whole day playing the PS2 for 6 hours and i'm still bored.

ok anyway i cant wait to go jamming next monday.
and...
I NEED TO STOP DRINKING!!!
its killing me but its good =) haha...
i think drinking frequently but in lesser amounts is ok la... provided its little... =P

alright then